To the strongest woman I've ever met, 

Thank you for bringing me to this world. Thank you for the love you have given. Thank you for persisting on when you feel like giving up. 

I know I haven't been a filial daughter, because I was too busy at work and trying to adapt to the adulthood that I didn't manage to spend much time with you. 

I know this is not the time to talk about regrets, but you know I regretted. 

I know you have fully recovered now and I know we should be happy for you. But the thought of not being able to see you again, hurts me the most. 

I still remember how I used to look at your curling body while you were asleep just to ensure you are still okay when i came home late at night. I would stand at the door staring at you for a few minutes without you knowing before I head back to my room. 

I am sorry that we haven't spoke for a very very long time. I am sorry that I am too busy with my life. I am sorry that I used to talk back to you.

I will never forget the last meal we had together, where you were so happy to eat my cooking again. I will never forget the last smile you gave me when we were cleaning the house on the last Sunday you spent in this world. I will never forget how you were struggling before you were sent to hospital on the last morning. I will never forget everything you have given me.

I know you will be very well taken care of in wherever you are at now, reuniting with ah gong, ah ma, ah zor, zor zor. I know you came back during your wake to visit us. I know, I know. 

If only we could all go back in time.